To all of you who have had broken hearts, shattered dreams, insecurities, and mental, emotional, physical, harm and stress, keep pushing through. No one deserves to be degraded and talked down to, but it happens doesn't it? I went through a time where it happened every single day, like it became routine.

I didn't realize it then, because just like anyone else, I was blinded by the horrible situation, but when I did finally come to my senses and took a step back to look at my life, I was horrified. Horrified by the person I let myself become. This scared, little, insecure, sad girl that I was not.

Keep going, don't think you won't make it or that you can't do it. End whatever you're in and be strong. Never think you 'need' someone, never. You may say you do, but sit back and actually think about it, do you really need them? I thought I needed someone one time, I was completely wrong, and I think it's sick. Sick to think you actually NEED someone to function, when they obviously show you they don't need you. Don't let that happen, ever.

Don't ever let someone tell you you're not good enough, you're ugly, you're this you're that. It's not true. I am beautiful. I have a beautiful mind and personality, and it was taken from me at one point, and forced to turn into something else. Never let that happen. Be who you are, for yourself. You're happiness comes first, it's you're number one priority. Don't let it slip away, it's hard to get back.

So I found my head again, my heart, my bright smile, and my big blue eyes of love, curiosity, care, and courage. I found out what things make me happy and just what I have to do to achieve them. I have also found someone you treats me right. With respect, care, protection, and more love then I could ever ask for or imagine. He is my best friend, the love of my life, and my savior. He has become my hero. So strong, brave, caring, loving, funny, the works. He's perfect..and I never believed in perfect before.

When you think there is no more, you're wrong. Because when you're wasting time being naive like i was and being treated poorly, you're missing out on someone who will love you for you.
Your imperfections, your strength, your emotions.
Your likes and dislikes, wierd quirks, your funny laugh, your immature jokes and mind.
Your curves, body structure, style, eyes, smile, hair.

and he/she will love the things you hate the most, just because they're apart of you.
Beauty is internal before external. let your mind wonder

oh, and happy birthday to me (: