25 April 2012

the strangest secret

After reading an inspiring book two nights ago off my kindle, i began to think differently, instantly. I know you are probably like, "that does not happen instantly, believe me I have tried," so I know what you are saying because I have been trying to think differently for a long time. But sometimes, just a little something you read or see can change your whole outlook on things. Reading inspirational books and watching videos of the sort occupies a lot of my boyfriend's time at night. He has really gotten into the psychology of things and moving forward in a positive way. If he had not gotten captured by this "positive outlook" way of life, I do not think I would be doing very well right now. Being away from home is so hard for me because I am so close with my family. Making friends, and I do not mean just people you can talk to every day, I mean best friends, is hard for me because I am let down a lot, have been let down a lot in life and have trust issues. No one is who they say they are, and that just bluntly sucks. So without him, positive things are hard to come by honestly.

Now, about this book. It is called "The Strangest Secret" and it was written in the 1950's. This short book, only about 60 something pages, was just what I needed for a wake-up call. It talked about the definition of success and how people perceive it negatively or wrongly. Success is not making a lot of money. Being successful is not made out of someone being extremely wealthy, but how people get to that point. It is about the love someone has for what they are doing and accomplishing. Money means nothing and ironically, it means everything in this world. Society has become so accustomed to wanting and needing everything that costs money, that successful people are the millionaires. My parents may have not made a lot of money in their lives, but I can say to you that I believe my mom is a successful person. She may not LOVE to drive into work everyday but she loves what she does and would rather be there than anywhere else. My mom has made a living for herself, me and my brother for the past six years and she stays strong and smart along the way. That is her success. Staying strong, becoming the best mother to me and my siblings and living her life along the way; it has nothing to do with what is in her bank account, we are just fine.

I keep ranting. Anyway, this book has made me think of things more clearly and more directly. The 30-day-challenge in this book is something you do every single day, for 30 days. You write down a goal, which is super important if you want to strive and achieve something of greatness, and look at it twice a day. You must maintain positive and fulfilling thoughts about yourself and this goal and if you choose to stray away from that, you must start at day 1, all over again. This challenge is really going to help me in life and I believe I will use it in many ways. Right now, since I am still a college student, life goals are not going to be on my paper that I read daily. I am going to start small, with the thing I want most right now. And that is to be fit and have my self-confidence rise to a point where I am genuinely happy with myself, no if, and's or buts. I am going to start this goal the day I get home from school for the summer and really stick to it. This is among many ways you can achieve goals positively.

Everyone should read inspirational things, even if you think they will not affect you. I have been through a lot in my 20 years of living and writing here in my blog is very helpful to me. I love to write things that people can read and interpret in a way that is helpful to their lives.

Be strong, be bold.

16 April 2012

do not waist

we all need to pick our heads up and walk tall.
I may have learned this the hard way and still do not follow through with it all the time, but I believe in it 100 percent. Nothing should bring you down so much that it alters your life, nothing. I have battled so much and let so much hang over my head or sit on my shoulders; i refuse to cower any longer. Nothing is worth the struggle of trying to pull yourself back up from the lowest point, nothing. I have learned so much about myself in the past year being away at school, that I find it hard to believe. I have met people who have changed how I view things and I have let go of some who only brought me down. This is all a learning experience that I will forever remember. I have taken on responsibilities that will make me grow as a person and I have dealt with things that I will never forget.

The quote that I really love is "some people are so poor, all they have is money."
this honestly would not have had any meaning to me before now. Life is about choices, seizing the day, believing in yourself, loving, laughing and really living. Just breathing and going on with the day, is not life; it is but waisting away.

No matter who walks in or walks out of your life, find your own way.
No matter what happens during the day, fall asleep happy.
As long as you have things to be thankful for, never wish anything different of your life.
Believe in each day that you enter and live your life fully.
Selfishness is not a way to make yourself happy, it ruins you in the long run.
Have friends, but do not count on them for everything.
Love a lot, because it really conquers all.

Be strong, be bold.


02 April 2012

and true, the visions hazy

Coming out of the best weekend I have had with friends in awhile, today has been a pretty good Monday also! Even though I could not get out of bed this morning, it has been productive and an all around happy day!

I am really realizing how happy I am with the direction my life is going in. I am becoming less tolerant of things, which I find great, because that means I deal with less things that I do not want to be dealing with! I am letting go and seeing life through the eyes of someone who is strong and happy; instead of someone who is upset with herself all day long and who does not know what she is living for. Finding out what I want, even though it is happening slowly, is a great feeling.

I know that the newspaper is where I am supposed to be. I love working for it, writing and editing. The people on The Slate staff are so helpful, encouraging and just great to be around. We went to D.C. this past Saturday to see the Newseum and it was just filled with laughs and good times, even though we all sat down to have a good cry over the 9/11 exhibit haha. Things with the paper are going so well and I hope to continue with it for as long as I am here at Ship. Tomorrow my application is due for the Opinion Editor position (I am the asst. now) so, wish me luck on getting the bump up! I really love what I do and I hope one day I get a successful job that I enjoy this much. Because, as Greg taught me, it is all about loving what you do, every day. Loving your career is what is most important to a happy and prosperous life. And I enjoy every second of writing and being apart of a news team.

So other than my major choice and career plan (kinda), things are just going great. I am keeping up with eating well, going to the gym and feeling better about myself also. I am keeping my head up and enjoying my time in college, but remaining myself in the process. I feel as though a lot of people lose sense of who they are once around different people and different atmospheres. But I know who I am and who I want to grow to be and I will never let anyone get in the way of that. My friends and family back home and my friends whom I have here at Ship are helping me every step of the way, supporting me and believing in what I can do. All of that is so appreciated. I would not make it through without all of them.

As I have time to sit and think, by myself for once, I realize more and more that things happen to help you get through harder things in life. You learn so much from what you have been through and every day that you experience more things. You can never know enough and you can never lose room to grow. My personality, tolerance levels, character and mind are growing every day and experiencing new things all the time. All the things that have brought me down earlier in life, have only brought me farther up today. Up until recently I have regretted so much that I have done. All the bad choices I have made, people I have hurt in the past and the ill feelings I have felt for others. But I will not regret anymore. Because I have learned that holding onto regrets is still holding on to those awful feelings and memories that need to be let go, so I can grow and move on.

So, consider them let go.
I am going to live for me. To impress myself, make my family proud and be the best friend that I possibly can. Growing up a very unselfish and caring person does wonders for someone, and I have my parents to thank for that. They molded my character into someone that I can honestly say I am proud of. I stick up for myself, back down from nothing and walk with my head up. Each day I get stronger and I have many to thank for that...including myself. I am stronger and a better person than I give myself credit for, but I finally understand.


Thank you to everyone.

Be strong, be bold.