push.

what do you see when you look in the mirror?
have you ever been asked this question? I have. and at one point in my life I didn't know what to say.

I thought about what I saw within myself. And at one point, I saw nothing. I saw a failure, someone who was too sensitive and too emotional, someone weak and insecure. And it was the worst feeling in the world.

I'm not going to say that even today I don't have doubts in myself, cause I really do, but I get through them better than I was before. I am still insecure about myself, but I don't see myself as that person anymore.

I see a strong girl who has been through a lot. I see someone who may cry, but that doesn't mean she's weak. I see someone who could use daily visits to the gym, but does not stress, because when she has time, she'll get to where she wants to be physically. I see a girl who knows what she wants, and will do anything to get it. And I see someone who has come such a long way. And I'm proud.


everyone should be proud of themselves for overcoming such things. Don't ever degrade yourself just because sometimes you mess up, or there's nights where you cry yourself to sleep. That doesn't make you a bad person, weak, or a failure. You can follow your dreams, you just have to start with believing in yourself.

Stare into your horizon, and don't let a single thing get in your way of it.

do it for you.

This life isn't easy. And the phrase, "I wish I was your age again" by elders...
is bull.

I mean I guess, yeah, for purposes like not having to be COMPLETELY on your own and having to deal with things. But I'm dealing with money struggles and stressful life situations at nineteen too. It isn't as easy as everyone said it'd be now is it?

but you just gotta keep pushing through. nothing can stop you if your head is raised and your confidence is up. nothing and no one. I'm having a very good day today. I'm not quite sure, the weather, the fact that school is almost done for me. I don't know. But I'm loving it. I'm smiling, I was singing and dancing around...and it feels great to be like this. So great that I don't know why I don't find a reason to be like this every day. I think everyone should.

but sometimes things just get hard, and you feel like you can't push on by...but you can. what you CANNOT do, is give up on yourself. Once you give up, you won't get back in the amount of time you think you will, believe me. I lived in a cycle. Happy, disappointed, sad, depressed (for a week) repeat. It's not easy pulling yourself up from the ground, so stay high up instead. : )

let yourself live

"All that we see or seem, is but a dream within a dream"

this quote is written by my favorite, Edgar Allan Poe.

It means a lot to the way people think life is interpreted. Dreams are things, in my opinion, that you can make happen if you put your mind to it. If you have a dreams that you've been carrying along with you, carry on. Don't give up on them just because your path has changed direction slightly, or if something has stepped in your way. I have always had a dream of writing and for a long time, I wouldn't place a pen to a piece of paper to write anything like I usually do. I went through a time in my life where I forgot the dreams I once had and tried to make new ones, fitting my new life.

that ended badly.

just like forgetting who you are, forgetting your dreams can be very damaging. If you have no dreams, what are you living for? Dream big, set goals for yourself, and never give up. The second you give up on yourself, it gives other people the right to. And that's not good. You want as many supporters as you can get, and if you don't, then YOU be your biggest fan and motivate yourself.

nothing can get in the way of your mind and heart, if they're working side by side.