sometimes, people change. sometimes they change for the better, or for the worse, but regardless it is out of your control. you can't help when someone is different then they always were, or better then they always were, the ball is in their court when it comes to matters of themselves. but one thing you can control, is how you handle the situation. i have learned that being sad, mad, upset, and confused, isn't the way to deal with change. i believe you should wait and see how things come together after that person is gone, or that person is back in your life. people may surprise you... change is inevitable in every form and way. you can't stop someone from changing themselves just because you don't want the change, you must learn to ride with it, or off course.
there are times when change happens unexpectidly. something that you wish would always remain the exact same way it has always been...but you have no control over that. and i have recently learned that. sometimes, when something changes, it acts as a challenge for you to defeat or overcome. i myself, do not like some of the changes that will be accuring in my life, but i have learned that i can't stop them. all i can do is live. live, breathe, laugh, love, and enjoy the time i have in this moment, this summer, this place. because pretty soon, things are going to be changing a lot. and the only thing i can do is let them change, you decide which way i want to go with them. and as for my love, no matter the changes, it will always remain the same for you.
although i have lost some friends i have gained great new ones. although i have lost some people in my life who, at the time, meant a great deal to me, i have gained more who mean more to me. and although things may be hard and rocky a lot for me...i have learned that nothing is easy, and if it is easy, something's wrong. nothing comes easy to me. not a sport, not music, not communication with others, not school, not friendships, relationships, or life. so i have learned i need to try, and fight, and never give up. because i have the things i want in life (minus a few) and i have fought to get where i am today. nothing can take away what i have done to make myself the person i am today, and i wouldn't erase it for anything. there are days that i wish i could go back and fix things, sure, i regret a lot of things in my life...but i can't change the inevitable; the change itself. the change i have gone through in the past five years. the change my mind has gone through even in the past year, and the change i am about to go through for the next three or more years. no matter what, you cannot change what has happened, what is about to happen, or what is happening...if it's going to happen anyway. there is no "right way" to turn or to look, there is no "right door" to open or walk past, and there is no "wrong way" to live your life. YOU decide what is best for you, and YOU decide what path to walk on when you face the fork in the road with change written all over it. my path? leads right into the change, because i don't have another choice. And I'm okay with that, because I'm a fighter. And everything will be okay.
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