never grow up

I'm moving out of the dorm tomorrow at 3 p.m. My sophomore year in college will be over then, and I am not sad. I know that the best things that are going to happen in my life are yet to come. I have had great opportunities and I have learned a lot this year, but I am just happy that it is all going to continue.

Growing up can be scary, but I think it is really exhilarating also. I may not be ready for the challenges my life has in store for me, but I am ready to fight through them and be around the people that have proven to me that they love me for me. The hardest part of growing up is this:

- finding out who you are
- finding real friends who will not leave you
- having real priorities. 


Making friends is easy. Anyone can hang out with anyone and have someone to talk to daily. But I am picky when it comes to friends because I have been hurt, left behind, betrayed and disappointed too many times to count over the past years. Those who I have thought were my best friends ended up as people I do not want to be around. I sat here earlier today looking at pictures and becoming sad about what I have lost, but then I realized, I have not lost anything, they have. I will do whatever it takes to make my friends happy. I love my friends more than anything and if they cannot repay that, then they are not worth it to me.

You meet people at every stage of your life, but it all depends on how you handle them at that time. I am becoming the strongest I have ever been, so I have no tolerance for immaturity, lies, cattiness and negativity. I want people in my life who enjoy life, love to sing and dance and sit and life talk for hours. Friends that will be there for me no matter what, because I will always be there for them. But finding perfect friends like that, is a challenge that maybe I was not ready for.

That, to me, is the hardest part about growing up.


So I should not be upset about losing people in my life because I always gain. I have met wonderful guys here that cherish time with Greg and I and I appreciate every one of them. And I have met great girls that I know I can count on. My best friends from home would not leave me for anything, and that's what means a lot to me, the dedication.

Sometimes, learning from mistakes is for the best. But it would be a little easier if people were nicer and more genuine. I do not know who raised these people, but my mom never raised me to act like that and to be a bad friend. Because let's face it, when it comes down to it, we all need a good friend. And for those of you who lie and get bored and drop friends, you will need a good friend one day too, remember that.

I am blessed to have my boyfriend as my best friend.

Growing up is hard. The challenge is there to take, or to ignore. I just hope you think about this the next time you are bored with someone or decide the person is not "good enough" for you. That one day, you are going to need someone strong by your side to help you. But it will not be me.