collage of minds.

I have learned about myself, clearly this time. My thoughts are all starting to come to order and make sense to me now. Last night could have been the first time, in a very long time, that I was completely happy and content. And it made me think, a lot.

no matter what you may think of yourself, or visualize what others may see, you are always going to be you. inside and out, quirks, judgments, humor, love, care, and insecurities. You will always be the only one to make the decisions, mistakes, and fight through the struggles. And most importantly, you are the one that matters the most. YOU make yourself happy and set yourself up for success, it's all on you.

I have realized how strong of a person I am. That I do have motivation and drive to do the things I want to do..because I'm doing them without even noticing. I am fighting off my own demons right now and succeeding greatly. I'm going to stop the worrying and  over thinking and just be so happy. Because I deserve just that. I deserve the real smiles and the butterflies in my stomach and the way my mouth and cheeks hurt from smiling and laughing so much.

and I deserve more
than average things and a plane and simple life. I am entitled to a beautiful life, and I'm going to partake in just that. What's the point of living if you can't enjoy and be happy right?




so keep your head up, stand tall and strong, and never let anyone tell you you're nothing; not even your own mind. Don't let temptation hold you back, or fear capture your mind. Things worth risking, involve a risk being taken. Never forget where your heart is and what makes you, you.
Leave the insecurities, regrets, flaws, and fears on the palette, and let the new colors of your mind rush together, creating something beautiful.