look back, and smile.

so much work to do, all the time. it's becoming cram weeks for school and I have no other worries but papers and work due on what days, plus my finals coming up. i cannot wait for sun, warm hair and breeze, money makin, and my boyfriend, alllll summer.

i want to be on the beach too.



so I get through my days by having life talks with myself, positive reinforcement. i tell myself how lucky i am to have the things that i have and for the people in my life. how proud i should be of myself for the accomplishments i have made and the person i have molded myself into, with a little bit of help of course. it is not always easy to be positive with yourself and believe me, it's not an every day thing for me. but im learning that it takes a lot of energy and insecurity to feel jealousy and degrade yourself daily. So then why do it? Because we're humans. it will never stop or end, but we can learn to control it in our lives. of course that green monster is going to come out in some occasions and on some days, but don't let it take over your life like it once had mine. and you're going to feel insecure somedays and feel like you're nothing on others. but just remember, that everyone is different and it is a good thing to be your own person and have your own mind. I want to reach out to everyone by saying, live to be different. live to laugh and love as much as you can. because one day, when you look back on your life, you'll be happy you learned to live it right.